This week is finals week at UNL and I managed to squeak by with having my last final on Tuesday. Usually, I'll have a final on Thursday or Friday! Bernie had a final yesterday (Wednesday) and one tonight- Ha ha! I think a bunch of friends are going to celebrate the end of the semester tonight.
Oh some not so exciting news, my dad called me on Tuesday to tell me that my first dog, Lucy isn't doing so well. I got her when I was in 4th grade so she's pushing 13 or 14 people years. Apparently, her kidneys are shutting down. Last night I was going to drive to North Bend and say good bye, but unfortunately the roads were really icy and my parents begged me to stay put. I wonder if it's a sign, maybe Lucy just needed last night to wonder off down the road, away from the house, and lie down. I'm so jumpy every time my phone rings in fear it'll be my parents telling me that Lucy is no where to be found. :( The Vet told them her time will probably be in the next 3 days because she is essentially starving herself to death. Sigh....I don't do well with death.
The base in Grand Island offers a temporary tech job every once in awhile and Bernie contemplated applying for it and finally he decided to apply. We talked about it for awhile and my first reaction was, if this is going to help him better understand his job and build a strong relationship with the guys he's deploying with, then why not take the job? But then there's the selfish side of me saying, WHAT!!? We'll be in different cities just months before the wedding. My 4 and a half months with him before he deploys will turn into a month and a half with him before he deploys. It's hard to understand what it's really going to be like with him gone and all. At least we'll be able to see each other once in awhile on some weekends. I keep catching myself trying to catch my breath, I think I have a little anxiety about this job and ultimately, the deployment.
On Sunday we had the Army family dinner and
Santa Clause came. It was fun! There was talk that we were going to have to make up Bernie's Will. I'm not ready for that...but will I ever be?
xoxx
You're so strong. Keep on keeping on! I love your posts
ReplyDeleteHang in there, babe! We are all in this deployment thing together. The morning we decorated our Christmas tree with the kids, we also had an appointment with an insurance guy about policies. Merry friggin Christmas, lol. I think the hardest part of this pre-deployment time is finding the balance between wanting and needing time with them and trying to be self-less and let them go train on top of trying to get that giant "TO DO" list done. You aren't alone in all this. Do your best to enjoy these holidays together, take lots of pictures, and stay close to God in prayer :) Hope to see you soon!
ReplyDelete~Laura Ross
Look at you two in your picture. How adorable. I know that God has a great plan for the both of you and I know that you are being great role models to all of us Army Wives. I've been an Army wife for 7 years now. It's hard. It doesn't get easy until you accept how incredibly proud you are of him because I know Bernie has got to be one of the luckiest guys in the world to have an amazing girl like you for a wife.
ReplyDeleteMaybe it's just me, but I would never let my soon-to-be take on a job in a different city just before the wedding. You NEED him at the wedding. I don't think you realize what you're doing to yourself.
ReplyDeleteHello Miss Molly,
ReplyDeleteYou don't know me, but I just wanted you to know that I'm living vicariously through you. I love, love LOVE that you're doing this blog and not in some creepy/stalker way, but I LOVE that Bernie has this rule about you needing to post once a week. You're like my favorite weekly TV show and I get to "watch" (read) my show everyweek. You're so great and have a wonderful personality!
-A General's Wife named Sandy