Weirdest thing.
So I woke up yesterday morning and I feel a weird cramp in my lower back on the right side...like I slept on it wrong. I ignored it, checked my e-mail, found out school wasn't going to be cancelled, which I thought it would be because the roads were so bad from all the snow.
Went back to bed and slept for about 30 minutes. Woke up and the cramp was still there, but turning more into an "ache" than a cramp. I tried to stretch it out, massage it out (kinda felt like a knot) but nothing worked.
Got out of bed, made some toast and worked on a couple things on my laptop. My roommate, Jordan was sitting on the other side of the living room and I told her I had a weird pain by my kidney. She asked if I thought it could be an infection, maybe a UTI, or a full bladder. That's when I felt, ya know, maybe I should see if the pain goes away if I go to the bathroom. Got to the bathroom and nothing happened....about 6 times in the course of an hour I went to the bathroom and nothing happened.
I decided, maybe I should sleep it off. After all, it's only 10:15 and I don't have class until 2.
It started getting worse. So much more pain and I had no idea why. I think Jordan's mom is a nurse so she called her mom and was asking her if she knew what I might be experiencing. Her mom first thought it was a kidney infection and that I should go get an antibiotic from a doctor.
I thought, hummm....I'll call in a set an appointment. I called in and they said they could get me in at 11 (about 40 minutes away)...and then...
IT HIT ME. Think of all the times you ever skinned your knee, stubbed your toe, bumped your head, got a bruise, hit by a car and then a train and then a chinook and combine all that pain together and put it in your lower right side back. That's what it felt like. I yelled, "JORDAN! YOU NEED TO TAKE ME NOW!"
We rushed to the clinic, I couldn't sit, I couldn't stand, I could not get comfortable in anyway! The roads were awful, but Jordan has 4 wheel drive and we made it there 10 minutes before 11 and they got me in right away. They gave me two shots for the pain and told me it was a stone. They sent me home with a filter, pain killers, and a sick feeling in my stomach...thought I was going to throw up.
I went home and slept for about 3 hours. Finally, I could go to the bathroom.
Today, I'm feeling much better. Not totally sure if it's completely passed or if it's still sitting in my bladder (which is where it can sit without it hurting)
I do not wish for anyone to ever have a kidney stone. But I hear labor will be a breeze now that I've gone through that.
xoxx
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Monday, January 31, 2011
Past 3 weeks
I have only a couple minutes to get you all caught up!
With Bernie living in Grand Island, reality has finally settled in. I am catching whiffs of what him being gone for a year will be like. This semester is crazy. I've been so busy with school and work during the week and when Bernie comes to town on the weekends, I realize by Sunday night that I've gotten nothing accomplished.
It's freezing rain now and Bern left about an hour ago to get back to G.I. My guess is that the 1 and a half hour drive with take him about an extra hour.
Last weekend was awesome and weird at the same time. We had our wedding shower at Bernie's aunt and uncles house. It was soooo much fun! The roads were really bad and Bernie had drill. Because Bernie was going to be in G.I. all weekend, he was pretty nervous about leaving work at 5:30 then getting to Omaha in a decent hour, especially with all the snow we got last Saturday night. He made it though. We played a couple games that were a lot of fun and Bernie's aunt, Lori (with the help of her daughter, Traci and her fiancée, Stephen) made a wine bottle into a bottle with a picture of me and Bernie and burnt paper that read, "Message in a Bottle" Bernie and I noticed the bottle and Lori said that there was going to be a game that went with it. Well, turns out it really wasn't a game, but a helpful guide for me when Bernie is away. Lori asked everyone to write a note or two to me for me to read when Bernie is gone. I can read one a week and I'll be scanning them in when I read them. It was hard to hold back the tears as she explained the game. I can't wait to read them. Thank you!
After the wedding shower, Bernie had to head back to Grand Island which meant we really only saw each other for about 4 hours in two weeks. It wasn't easy for me to say bye. In fact, that Sunday was really hard. Sundays were always the day Bernie and I had the most memories. We'd go to church together, maybe out to eat and grab a movie to watch at one of our houses. Sure, I was probably PMSing and being hormonal, but when I got back to my apartment I broke down in tears, mumbled a few things to my wonderful roommate, wiped my face, and went to work. It was just hard to have a Sunday without Bernie.
It really made me realize how I need to cherish our moments more; seeing him 3 weekends a month should be plenty, but knowing that everytime I see him is a weekend closer to him leaving makes it hard. Instead, I need to be thinking that it's a weekend closer to him coming home. :)
Anyway, Bern just left again and we still have a few things on our "To-Do" List that didn't get done with weekend, so I best keep on keeping on before work.
xoxx
With Bernie living in Grand Island, reality has finally settled in. I am catching whiffs of what him being gone for a year will be like. This semester is crazy. I've been so busy with school and work during the week and when Bernie comes to town on the weekends, I realize by Sunday night that I've gotten nothing accomplished.
It's freezing rain now and Bern left about an hour ago to get back to G.I. My guess is that the 1 and a half hour drive with take him about an extra hour.
Last weekend was awesome and weird at the same time. We had our wedding shower at Bernie's aunt and uncles house. It was soooo much fun! The roads were really bad and Bernie had drill. Because Bernie was going to be in G.I. all weekend, he was pretty nervous about leaving work at 5:30 then getting to Omaha in a decent hour, especially with all the snow we got last Saturday night. He made it though. We played a couple games that were a lot of fun and Bernie's aunt, Lori (with the help of her daughter, Traci and her fiancée, Stephen) made a wine bottle into a bottle with a picture of me and Bernie and burnt paper that read, "Message in a Bottle" Bernie and I noticed the bottle and Lori said that there was going to be a game that went with it. Well, turns out it really wasn't a game, but a helpful guide for me when Bernie is away. Lori asked everyone to write a note or two to me for me to read when Bernie is gone. I can read one a week and I'll be scanning them in when I read them. It was hard to hold back the tears as she explained the game. I can't wait to read them. Thank you!
After the wedding shower, Bernie had to head back to Grand Island which meant we really only saw each other for about 4 hours in two weeks. It wasn't easy for me to say bye. In fact, that Sunday was really hard. Sundays were always the day Bernie and I had the most memories. We'd go to church together, maybe out to eat and grab a movie to watch at one of our houses. Sure, I was probably PMSing and being hormonal, but when I got back to my apartment I broke down in tears, mumbled a few things to my wonderful roommate, wiped my face, and went to work. It was just hard to have a Sunday without Bernie.
It really made me realize how I need to cherish our moments more; seeing him 3 weekends a month should be plenty, but knowing that everytime I see him is a weekend closer to him leaving makes it hard. Instead, I need to be thinking that it's a weekend closer to him coming home. :)
Anyway, Bern just left again and we still have a few things on our "To-Do" List that didn't get done with weekend, so I best keep on keeping on before work.
xoxx
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Weddings, Babies, and School
So, remember my last post and I was shocked that I let a full 2 and half weeks go by without ever posting anything when Bernie made me promise I'd post something once a week? Well, it's been a couple days over a month now...and boy, do I have a lot to mention.
First off I want to give a HUGE CONGRATULATIONS to my cousin, Eric who got married in California to the beautiful, Miss Jennifer.
Congratulations, Guy and Welcome to the family, Jen
First off I want to give a HUGE CONGRATULATIONS to my cousin, Eric who got married in California to the beautiful, Miss Jennifer.
Congratulations, Guy and Welcome to the family, Jen
Speaking of additions to the family...I'm going to be an aunt! JOHN AND LISSY ARE PREGNANT!!!
They have known for awhile, but announced the wonderful news at Christmas!
CONGRATULATIONS, John and Lissy!!
I don't know if I mentioned what Bernie decided or not about the job in Grand Island, but he decided that he wanted to take it and so he moved over to Grand Island with John and Lissy for the temp tech job on January 4th. He likes it so far and will be working there until about the 1st of April.
Speaking of April, I can't believe that the wedding is creeping up so fast. Every weekend Bernie comes back to Lincoln and we try to get more and more of our wedding To-Do List accomplished. This past Saturday we got SOO much accomplished. We met with our decorator to see what we can do with our reception hall and we have millions of amazing ideas, but every idea costs more and more so we're trying to limit what we can and cannot do. We're both really excited. We also got Bernie's wedding ring ordered..again. The first one we ordered was two big when it came in so we ordered a smaller one. Hopefully, it fits when it comes in. We booked our DJ and photographer last weekend! We're thrilled!
Everything is finally coming together.
Spring semester has finally begun and today is my busiest school day of the week. I have classes from 10 this morning until about 7pm. I'm excited about all my classes even though this my be my toughest semester yet...
Anyway, I best be on my way to my next class.
xoxx
Friday, December 17, 2010
Road Trip!
I get so excited this time of year! Christmas lights, the music, being with family, wrapping girfts, the ugly ornaments...everything.
This Christmas, we're having Bernie's family's Christmas in Grand Island this weekend. We're driving over there tonight and staying until Sunday! I'm really EXCITED!!!
Just to give you a glimpse of my weekend....this is the family I will be hanging with:
Oh...let the Joy begin!
I'm glad I have this weekend to look forward to because unfortunately my dad called my this morning to tell me that my Border Collie, Lucy is going to be put down tomorrow morning if she doesn't make it on her own tonight. She is one of the best dogs in the world and I am going to miss her soooo much! Bernie and I are on our way to say good bye and then we will head to Grand Island.
You're in my prayers, Lucy. I love you so much!
xoxx
This Christmas, we're having Bernie's family's Christmas in Grand Island this weekend. We're driving over there tonight and staying until Sunday! I'm really EXCITED!!!
Just to give you a glimpse of my weekend....this is the family I will be hanging with:
Oh...let the Joy begin!
I'm glad I have this weekend to look forward to because unfortunately my dad called my this morning to tell me that my Border Collie, Lucy is going to be put down tomorrow morning if she doesn't make it on her own tonight. She is one of the best dogs in the world and I am going to miss her soooo much! Bernie and I are on our way to say good bye and then we will head to Grand Island.
You're in my prayers, Lucy. I love you so much!
xoxx
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Two and a half weeks!!!
I can't believe it's been two and a half weeks since I have last posted anything. I hope Bernie isn't mad that I broke a rule....Oh my goodness, so much has happened. Where do I begin?
This week is finals week at UNL and I managed to squeak by with having my last final on Tuesday. Usually, I'll have a final on Thursday or Friday! Bernie had a final yesterday (Wednesday) and one tonight- Ha ha! I think a bunch of friends are going to celebrate the end of the semester tonight.
Oh some not so exciting news, my dad called me on Tuesday to tell me that my first dog, Lucy isn't doing so well. I got her when I was in 4th grade so she's pushing 13 or 14 people years. Apparently, her kidneys are shutting down. Last night I was going to drive to North Bend and say good bye, but unfortunately the roads were really icy and my parents begged me to stay put. I wonder if it's a sign, maybe Lucy just needed last night to wonder off down the road, away from the house, and lie down. I'm so jumpy every time my phone rings in fear it'll be my parents telling me that Lucy is no where to be found. :( The Vet told them her time will probably be in the next 3 days because she is essentially starving herself to death. Sigh....I don't do well with death.
The base in Grand Island offers a temporary tech job every once in awhile and Bernie contemplated applying for it and finally he decided to apply. We talked about it for awhile and my first reaction was, if this is going to help him better understand his job and build a strong relationship with the guys he's deploying with, then why not take the job? But then there's the selfish side of me saying, WHAT!!? We'll be in different cities just months before the wedding. My 4 and a half months with him before he deploys will turn into a month and a half with him before he deploys. It's hard to understand what it's really going to be like with him gone and all. At least we'll be able to see each other once in awhile on some weekends. I keep catching myself trying to catch my breath, I think I have a little anxiety about this job and ultimately, the deployment.
xoxx
This week is finals week at UNL and I managed to squeak by with having my last final on Tuesday. Usually, I'll have a final on Thursday or Friday! Bernie had a final yesterday (Wednesday) and one tonight- Ha ha! I think a bunch of friends are going to celebrate the end of the semester tonight.
Oh some not so exciting news, my dad called me on Tuesday to tell me that my first dog, Lucy isn't doing so well. I got her when I was in 4th grade so she's pushing 13 or 14 people years. Apparently, her kidneys are shutting down. Last night I was going to drive to North Bend and say good bye, but unfortunately the roads were really icy and my parents begged me to stay put. I wonder if it's a sign, maybe Lucy just needed last night to wonder off down the road, away from the house, and lie down. I'm so jumpy every time my phone rings in fear it'll be my parents telling me that Lucy is no where to be found. :( The Vet told them her time will probably be in the next 3 days because she is essentially starving herself to death. Sigh....I don't do well with death.
The base in Grand Island offers a temporary tech job every once in awhile and Bernie contemplated applying for it and finally he decided to apply. We talked about it for awhile and my first reaction was, if this is going to help him better understand his job and build a strong relationship with the guys he's deploying with, then why not take the job? But then there's the selfish side of me saying, WHAT!!? We'll be in different cities just months before the wedding. My 4 and a half months with him before he deploys will turn into a month and a half with him before he deploys. It's hard to understand what it's really going to be like with him gone and all. At least we'll be able to see each other once in awhile on some weekends. I keep catching myself trying to catch my breath, I think I have a little anxiety about this job and ultimately, the deployment.
On Sunday we had the Army family dinner and
Santa Clause came. It was fun! There was talk that we were going to have to make up Bernie's Will. I'm not ready for that...but will I ever be?
xoxx
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Article I found
This is an article I found through the FRG group on Facebook. It's a good way to look at things during deployment. Take a look.
xoxx
When the kitchen floor buckled in our first house, my husband opened a giant hole in the subfloor to fix the joist. I promptly fell right through. I knew the hole was there. Told myself to avoid it. Fell right through.
xoxx
DANGER: Deployment Construction
November 8th, 2010 by Jacey EckhartWhen the kitchen floor buckled in our first house, my husband opened a giant hole in the subfloor to fix the joist. I promptly fell right through. I knew the hole was there. Told myself to avoid it. Fell right through.That’s how I feel about depresso days during deployment. I know the emotional hole is there, and still, somehow, sometimes, I fall through. Like I did last Tuesday. By the time I got into bed I was missing Brad so much I felt bruised by it. I pulled my pillow over my head and blamed the Navy. Without this stupid deployment, I would clearly not be feeling so bad.
But the longer I huffed the fabric softener, the more I thought that maybe—just maybe—the Navy was not to blame for my crappola day. Brad was not even to blame for my crappola day.
Yup, I missed him. Who would not miss such a good guy? But if I really looked hard at my day, I could see that I’d missed a dozen chances to feel better. I missed doing the things I know that help me shake off a bad day. I let myself watch two episodes of Tosh.O. A Bones I had seen before. The new Glee. That’s three solid hours of TV. I didn’t make a dinner and call the boys to the table. I fixed some stuff and let them eat in front of the TV. I didn’t do the yoga that helps my back. Didn’t walk the dog. Did not eat a single vegetable unless you consider potato chips a veg. ( I do.) I didn’t just fall into the hole. I started digging deeper.
So I got out of bed and ironed three shirts—not every shirt in the pile. Just the top three. I felt better. When Brad is gone, he leaves a giant hole in the life of our family. But it is a necessary hole. He is away working on the foundations of our family. So am I. I just have to learn to avoid that hole, or climb out a little quicker.
Jacey Eckhart is a military life consultant in Washington, DC. She is the author of “The Homefront Club” and the voice behind the award-winning Military OneSource CD “These Boots.” Facebook Jacey or contact her at jacey@jaceyeckhart.com.
Trying to find the motivation to finish my end of the semester projects...
I know, I know. One of Bernie's rules was that I had to write something in this blog once a week and I'm way overdue.
First off, the Engaged Encounter retreat was really good. Bern and I went in there feeling like we knew everything there is to know about each other (which was great) but the whole purpose of the weekend is to grow closer together with God and also learn more about each other's responsibilities with home front things, like finances, children, careers, etc. It was a lot of fun and we definitely walked out of there feeling more confident in each other and more in love and more ready than ever to get married. :)
This past week was pretty low key. I only had 1 class on Monday and two online quizzes (Got A's on both, woot woot) However, I did have to work a bit.
We found a reception hall for our reception that's half the price of the one we originally booked! I'm really excited about it and it's actually in an easy location from the church! April is approaching fast!
Thanksgiving with my family was AMAZING! Bernie was with my family the whole time because his family is in Washington for his sister's second wedding reception with the grooms parents and family.
My family ate a lot at my parent's house and then we had dinner at my grandparents' house and boy, did I overeat!
Friday was the Husker's Game (GO BIG RED) Bernie and I went to that I we beat Colorado so Nebraska is going to the Big XII Championship in Texas on Saturday Dec. 4th...We play Oklahoma.
Yesterday I went back to my parents house and we played this crazy game of Catch Phrase, Password and Charades all mixed into one game. It was loads of fun! Almost peed my pants from laughing so much!
Today Bernie and I put up his Christmas tree in his living room and it looks silly but like "us." Every year Bernie and I have a thing where we each pick out the ugliest Christmas ornament we can find. As the years go by the tree will get uglier and uglier. It's basically so ugly it's cute.
I'm suppose to be working on a couple projects that I have to do before next week, but it's so hard to find the motivation to get these done when all I really want to do is grab a quilt, sit by the fireplace and curl up next to Bernie with two big mugs of hot cocoa.
Anyway, I best be getting to those projects!
Happy Holidays,
xoxx
First off, the Engaged Encounter retreat was really good. Bern and I went in there feeling like we knew everything there is to know about each other (which was great) but the whole purpose of the weekend is to grow closer together with God and also learn more about each other's responsibilities with home front things, like finances, children, careers, etc. It was a lot of fun and we definitely walked out of there feeling more confident in each other and more in love and more ready than ever to get married. :)
This past week was pretty low key. I only had 1 class on Monday and two online quizzes (Got A's on both, woot woot) However, I did have to work a bit.
We found a reception hall for our reception that's half the price of the one we originally booked! I'm really excited about it and it's actually in an easy location from the church! April is approaching fast!
Thanksgiving with my family was AMAZING! Bernie was with my family the whole time because his family is in Washington for his sister's second wedding reception with the grooms parents and family.
My family ate a lot at my parent's house and then we had dinner at my grandparents' house and boy, did I overeat!
Friday was the Husker's Game (GO BIG RED) Bernie and I went to that I we beat Colorado so Nebraska is going to the Big XII Championship in Texas on Saturday Dec. 4th...We play Oklahoma.
Yesterday I went back to my parents house and we played this crazy game of Catch Phrase, Password and Charades all mixed into one game. It was loads of fun! Almost peed my pants from laughing so much!
Today Bernie and I put up his Christmas tree in his living room and it looks silly but like "us." Every year Bernie and I have a thing where we each pick out the ugliest Christmas ornament we can find. As the years go by the tree will get uglier and uglier. It's basically so ugly it's cute.
I'm suppose to be working on a couple projects that I have to do before next week, but it's so hard to find the motivation to get these done when all I really want to do is grab a quilt, sit by the fireplace and curl up next to Bernie with two big mugs of hot cocoa.
Anyway, I best be getting to those projects!
Happy Holidays,
xoxx
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